the beginning of my long journey...

2011 is here and I'm ready to take over the film industry by storm. Seriously.

I ended 2010 by working on my very first feature film as an intern P.A. that turned into a 2nd 2nd A.D. (Assistant Director), which was pretty cool. I learned so much about film making that no book or school could ever teach me. I met lots of people including the wonderful Ali Landry and I plan to keep in touch with her and everyone else I met. I never fully understood what they meant when they said, "It's about who you know" until I worked on this feature. Just having casual conversations with these people opened doors to my future, it's insane.

At the end of this month, I'm going to the 2011 Sundance Film Festival. This will be the first time I'm going to Sundance and my second BIG film festival, Cannes Film Festival in France being my first. I'm very excited to go and I can't wait to meet all the people that will be there. I'm going to sell myself like a hooker on Sunset. I plan to have lots of business cards ready to go and my website up and running.

So in 2010, I prepared and accomplished lots of things to be ready for what this new year has in store for me. Since I graduated in June 2009 with my BA in Television, Film and Media Studies, I've had 3 internships.

-HeadQuarter Entertainment (Tyrese Gibson's Multi-Media Company) 09-10
-Moviola Digital- Education Center (Learning everything about post) 09-10
-Me, Again Feature Film (12 day shoot in LA) 12/10

Along with those internships, I bought my very first DSLR camera to make films so I've made a few short films that I've had the wonderful opportunity of showcasing in theatres and bars. That was a very exciting time for me, and I can't wait to do it more often! And I've also been reading lots and lots of film books, from scriptwriting to cinematography to directing, I'm educating myself on it all. In order to be the best I have to be on top of everything and know more than anyone! Knowledge is power. And then of course on top of ALL of that, the most important, watching films galore from the very first films in the early 1900's to the latest blockbuster hit.

I've taken some pretty drastic measures as well in my personal life. I decided it was best to live on my own to isolate myself and be able to better focus, so I finally got my own apartment in October in Studio City. I've also slowed down my social life. I haven't come across too many people that have my kind of focus and determination and quite honestly drinking and partying just doesn't attract me right now so I've been staying home a lot. I also don't care to meet men or date because I feel it will be a huge distraction whether the relationship is in good terms or bad. I've also left my family in San Antonio, Texas to come out here and make my dream a reality. Making all these changes I feel are for the best and will help me attain the success I so much desire.

To put more clearly how determined I am, I basically wake up thinking about film making and go to sleep thinking the same. I have dreams of ideas for films and wake up in the middle of the night to write them down. I take my camera almost everywhere with me. I read film books every day. I try to watch at least one film every day and I research everyone and anyone on IMDb, etc. I crave the knowledge that I need to have to be successful, I want to know everything about everything. I want to be an asset to whomever and eventually to myself.

So in closing, I will from here on out write about my trial and errors, success and failures until I ultimately reach my goal. And it WILL be reached, no doubt about that.

Stay tuned, y'all! :) I'm perdy excited.

-Director Pamela Matew

"Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go."